THE KILL ME NOW VIBES OF TRYING TO BE AN ORGANISED NORMALPRENEUR

No matter how many times you tell yourself otherwise, the reality you’re at some point going to need to give in to is that you.need.the.CHAOS!

The balls in the air. Flying through your hair. (Haha. Why not?!). Crazy. Relentless. Everything. All at once. All the time. Until of course at ANY time when you can and will decide ‘fuck all of ALL of it’, and basically just slam the laptop shut, walk away, cancel your day, cancel the world, now I’m going within, dropping in to soul, dropping in to truth, dropping in to YOU –

Which, let’s face it, if we’re being honest about it and I trust we ARE, that place, the soul place, the you place??

Is exactly where the chaos most deeply lies.

And here’s the thing –

That part of you which thinks that in order to go to the next level you need to be ORGANISED, structured, on top of things, make a pretty little plan and check it twice?

That bitch needs to die.

The truth is that you need the madness and the mayhem, it’s fuel to your soul and it is PRECISELY what actually energises and expands you.

Yes.

Sure.

When you need to rest, pause, be still, you DO IN FACT NEED THAT. You get to have it. It is EQUALLY required fuel for your soul as what the madness is, and without trusting in and being in that stillness, the PAUSE, as and when you need it then you will in fact fall apart.

Crumble and die.

Or, at least feel like that’s what’s happening. In a practical sense, most likely what will occur is that you will start to sabotage. Binge. Numb out, or down, in some way. Eat eat eat. Drink drink drink. Scroll scroll scroll. Lose lose lose (your shit). You know how it goes!

So yeah. You need to learn the revolutionary fucking art of self care, of knowing that you ALWAYS have time to pause, breathe, connect in, to wait until the CERTAIN next step is revealed to you. The more you think you’re rush rush rushing around the more you are DEVIATING from soul certain alignment!

Take the damn time to let time work for YOU! Breathe through the fear! You’ve got this!

But when you are ON? Baby you need to be ON.

You need to be floating and flowing and FLYING through your life and this you KNOW! The times when you feel as though it’s all too much and that you can’t handle it are NOT a sign that you need to somehow extricate the chaos from your life.

They MAY be a sign you need to learn to dance more smoothly to the actual beat of your own soul, and listen to its changing needs.

They may also be a somewhat reaction to conditioned ideas of how life should work. How being an entrepreneur should work. A leader. A ‘proper’ successful and purpose-driven man or woman.

Because what we’re really talking about here is this:

You’ve allowed yourself to buy in to the idea that for you to really elevate you should be something you’re NOT. The idea that even at this current level, in your current reality, if people only knew the truth then they’d be appalled! Outraged! Think you are not human-ing properly. And so on.

But what if –

Just what if –

It was all a big crazy made up lie –

An idea perpetuated by people who don’t actually understand people like US, the idea that you need to slow down and breathe when in actual fact, in ACTUAL fact sister – (say it! own it!) –

YOU NEED TO WAKE UP AND LIVE.

Admit it –

You LIKE the madness, you thrive on it, yes you may curse it at times, but we already checked you on the self care front, and so again let me remind you of who TF you are:

You with everything calm,
All the time,
Super organised,
Properly put together
And working like a good lil steam train,

is complete
and utter
and total

KILL ME NOW VIBES KILL ME FASTER KILL ME FASTER STILL.

You’ve tried this. You’ve rolled with it for a minute here or there. And everytime you’ve given IN to it, fully, you’ve fallen the fuck apart! You get sad and slow and fat and bloated and pale and (horror!) all dried up in ALL THE AREAS THAT REALLY SHOULDN’T BE DRY.

Soul and vagina baby. Say vulva and I will cut you.

😉

So.

You do know what to do here, yeah?

You KNOW how it has to be.

You know that you know that you know that the ONLY POSSIBLE THING that’s actually gonna get you to where you want to go is giving in.

Give in to the madness.

Give in to the chaos.

Give in to the mess.

Give in to it all being everywhere, all over the place, all the time.

And decide to TRUST.

Trust that it can and will work this way! That it has done so in the past, and anytime when you think it didn’t, well, clearly there was something you needed to learn there!

Yes.

You may need to have a few basic ‘rules’ in place for yourself. I.e., I know that when I in SOME way or shape or form tap in to my higher self … message and communicate … move my body … sell … each day, that everything works and moves forward.

But any more ‘how’ or structure than that? Not.fucking.necessary. In fact it is ABSOLUTELY necessary NOT to have it!

Here is how I do it and how it works:

I write down the outcomes I want. I commit that they ARE done, because I said so, I decided and I meant it. I trust that the ‘how’ will reveal itself on the way. And then I LAUNCH MYSELF INTO THE FRAY.

The err’ day brand new dance with life itself baby.

Is there really any other way you actually want to do this livin’ on earth thang anyway?

I think not.

Give in to the madness.

And just watch as it reveals to you the next level you’ve been waiting for.

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