Purpose

QUIT MOTHERFUCKING DOING SHIT THAT’S NOT YOUR JOB

When you say yes to all of you, and you finally make the decision to let go, let FLOW, and, well, let’s be honest here –

GET YOUR OWN IN THE WAY ASS OUT OF THE WAY –

things can actually pick up so quickly it can be almost TERRIFYING.

All of a sudden you realise just how much was available to you the entire time,

just how much you were holding back,

just how much your continual addiction to DO was putting the mofo brakes on,

just how much you were in fact, by trying so HARD to be fully you, doing precisely the opposite!

Tell me something –

when you look back, from the Magical One Day Supposedly Far Away (But Actually Already Always Here) Place in Which You Are There –

do you look back and see a montage in which you struggled, and strived, and pushed, and fought, and painstakingly ‘got there’ one inch by inch step at a time, almost ALWAYS at the cost of your soul, your sanity, and ultimately, pieces of your LIFE?

Or do you look back and see that, whilst of course there WAS struggle, there was STRIVE (who’d wanna live without it?!), there was absolutely work that was DONE, there was also a Very Important Case of the Main Character (that’s you!) Waking TF Up and Realising How Much Easier It Could Be if She Just Decided.

?

Hmm?

What do you see?

Here is what I see, and what I know to be true for a woman like you, a woman like me, a called one who was born to create and dance in the wind and BE the change and impact the world just with PRESENCE –

I see:

A visionary

A messenger

One who lets soul shifting power and truth pour forth from within

One who has a direct line of contact to God, to soul, to the very fabric of the cosmos, to life

And most of all,

if any of this is to come to life,

one who KNOWS WHAT THEIR DAMN JOB IS.

Who finally realised that they are being WILDLY irresponsible when they take it upon themselves to try and do the building,

join the dots,

make the things,

achieve.

Does this mean you shouldn’t build, join, make, achieve, of COURSE not.

It’s about the place that it comes from.

It’s a paradigm switch, a ‘you’re looking through the wrong hole’ realisation of ohhhhhhh –

it’s not that I have the ideas,

then figure out how to execute the ideas,

then perform said execution amidst much avoidance, resistance, gnashing of teeth, and eventually doing a half-assed job of what an underdeveloped monkey with a vodka problem could do,

all the while, as a NATURAL FUCKING CONSEQUENCE OF BEING STUCK IN SAID DO, failing to go into my creative genius, failing to drop fully into flow, failing to take the time to ALLOW myself to be shown where I’m to be next led, failing to be IN the DANCE,

with God

and soul

and life,

NO.

None of this.

Instead –

It’s that I have the ideas,

often just a WHISPER of the thing, a hint, a mere passing fairy floss light wonderment of ‘hmmmm … MAYBE!’,

and then I DECIDE them.

What do I DO?

WHATEVER TF IT IS THAT I WAS SUPPOSED TO BE DOING ANYWAY.

Now my dear –

what was THAT?

pray tell?

What WAS it and IS it and will it ALWAYS be, that YOU, are supposed to be doing?

No no, I don’t mean relevant to your task or wish list, and I think you know that.

I mean –

relevant to the expression of your soul.

Relevant to the fulfilment of your CONTRACT here on earth.

Relevant to what it is that, if you continue to try and press on without fully BEING in, and saying yes to, will result in much the same outcome as if you would continue to try and press on without BREATHING,

and saying yes to life.

Do you realise?

What you do?

On an internal level, on the energetic plane, for your DESTINY, and yes, dare I say, even for your children’s children, when you REFUSE TO LIVE FOR WHAT YOU WERE GIVEN LIFE FOR?

It’s the only job you have here.

So,

WHAT WAS IT ALWAYS AND WHAT WILL IT ALWAYS BE?

THIS,

is what you must do.

Only this,

and very little else.

In fact the more you do NOTHING of the ‘very little else’ bit,

the more everything will open,

flow towards you,

Amen.

“But Kat! What about this, and that, and how, and GOSH!”

– Well.

What about it?

What do you want to give your life for?

What do you KNOW is the gateway?

Quit listening to your own bullshit! You know that you know that you KNOW that the answer is the same as it has always been.

Run run run run RUN like the wind into being all of you.

Fuck anything that slows that down.

Which means that if you have an idea,

a want,

a ‘need’,

a passing wonderment,

you decide it gets to be DONE,

you ask, choose, ASSUME, and hand it over (this or something better!),

and then you GET BACK TO THE TASK AT HAND.

So who does the DOING then, you may well ask?

– some of it gets done by virtue of you refusing to do anything except be you, whatever that looks like, following that beat within

– some of it you decide the exact right person or people will appear to do it

– some of them you will pay (the more you do this before ready, the better, for practical reasons but also for reasons of backing yourself and what that unlocks energetically)

– some of them will just happen along and there won’t be a monetary exchange

– some of them life itSELF will somehow just take care of, and you won’t even EVER be able to really explain it (think of it as cosmic recompense for saying yes to soul, and TRUST) … this happens a LOT

– really YOU get to decide. It’s your story. How do you wanna write it? Be SPECIFIC.

Nothing sillier than a vague AF prayer.

Nothing sadder than a vague AF life,

all because you were never bold enough to just clearly ask,

decide,

hand it over,

and trust.

Then get on with the job of being you.

The thing is, when you say yes to letting it be as fast and as easy as it was always meant to be,

shit will speed up out of nowhere.

It may move so fast you’ll be scared to keep holding on,

breathless with just how fully life is now carrying you along,

wondering if you’re going to crash to the ground at any moment!

The thing is,

what were you hoping for in life instead?

Let go.

Choose.

Decide.

Decide ALL of what you see, all of what you even feel, even a hint of it, and now!

AND STOP MOTHERFUCKING DOING SHIT THAT’S NOT YOUR JOB.